Hen♠ittionSecond-s

Sunday, August 26, 2012 /

" The best proof of love is trust. "

Went out with dear and WeeSeah on the 18th. Scape for pool and flea! Then meet WeeSeah's bff(Best Fries Forever xP) , heading to Taka, Ion. Then trained to Bugis. And back to Taka for donald duck. And lastly bused to Plaza Sing. Tiring dayy! And yess, I pms-ed a lot killing much mood. Wanted to meet Jia at Plaza Sing but too bad, she hasn't end work :/

Studies has been quite bad I would say. Prelim2, I failed my dnt by 1.5 marks and geog by 12 marks. The rest, so-so lor. PASSED MY ENGLISH AND CHEM! Okayy, even just passed by few marks, I'm happy alright! My two threatening subjects! :( I'm afraid about my N's.. If I would be able to get below 11, if i'm able to proceed for through-train :/ Or even worse, if I'm able to get to sec 5 :/ Well, I word of encouragement for myself : I didn't even study for prelim, if i study for N's I would do well. HOPEFULLY SANDY -.-
Relationship with dear has been pretty bad recently.. Loads of quarrels and stuff.. I'm sorry okay dear.. I don't feel well, I don't feel secured and i'm always having nightmares.. Whatever I do, I just wanna you to know, I'm just trying to gain your attention, not really wanting to hurt myself either.. So much has happened, my family is giving me loads of problem which I don't know how to let you know and understand.. My studies has been bloody stressful which I don't know how to cope.. Yes I know I shouldn't mind about her. But you gotta understand me too don't you? Imagine everyone is gossiping about me and another guy. How would you feel? How would you feel if you got no choice but to leave your work place for bloody two months and you won't get to know what's gonna go on between me and that guy? How would you feel if that guy is better looking and cuter than you, and you're just afraid of being replaced? Yes you don't want it this way and you didn't do anything to attract all this gossips, but how would I feel when I hear all those stuff and sees it with my eyes? Yes I'm irritating you about her but why can't you understand I'm just trying to get you to me more attention and secure-ness.. I don't feel well, not at all. Yes this two days, I seems better despite more of irritating disturbs from people at work. But do you even know, I don't feel any better inside? Because I know, I have to stop my stupidity, I need to force myself to trust and believe no matter how much I can't. If I'm really replaced, then that's fate. Probably, it's just karma.
Family, no comments.
Work, I'm leaving for two months. May or may not be going back.
Money, I'm saving up. For new specs/monthly contacts. Changing of new phone. Foods and spendings for two months.
Come across this song, super duper old. But cute.