Yea, I'm back to blogging. Cause.
1 : I dont wanna post on fb.
2 : I just hope this someone will see my blog..
Well, readers. It's not for you, i'm just letting out my feelings. Cause, I'm tired of crying..

Dear you,
it's the second day of our quarrel.. We ain't going anywhere better.. So much of quarrel.. You broke so much of your promises.. You left me alone facing the problem, you forgotten what I feared most.. 8hrs, alone. thinking so much. I don't feel hungry for the whole day.. I don't feel anything.. Mama and papa told me, you'll be here at night.. I know it's impossible, but i hoped.. We had a talk in the night, you said nothing bout what I shoot you. I dont wanna hear "sorry".. It don't cure anything..  Yes I don't deserve so much from you. BUT don't give me any promises when you think i'm worthy and break it when you think i'm like a piece of shit.. Don't make me feel hopeful and sent me down to hell.. You know what I feared most, you told me you'll remove the fear in me.. Yes, few days. But after that? Well, you left it at the back of your head.. I couldn't sleep last night, not even crying myself to sleep.. So well, apprx I fell asleep at 3am++ and woke up at 4am++ by nightmare.. And yes, I told myself not to sleep cause i'm so afraid I would fall asleep and wake up late, unable to give you surprise.. Stayed by till 8am, thinking of going to your house giving you surprise and making everything back to normal.. Yes, everything was back. Yes, I was so glad.. BUT WHY DO I HAVE SUCH ITCHY HANDS?! Why do I look at your messages?! Why do I found out what you sent to your brother?! You didn't even wanted it to last.. No matter how down I am, I would never say that we wouldn't last, that we should have some time to cool down.. I remembered every single things y'knw.. How could I forget what hurts me so much..  You promised you'll never hurt me, you promised you'll never lie to me, you promised you'll never let me feel disappointed again.. You're disappointed by my mean words, but what about me?! Just because I kept quiet, means I don't feel anything? How much I've went through without saying anything?! Sorry, you doesn't know.. Once bitten, twice shy.. You're not saying anything, so well what's the point of trying to communicate with you? I'd rather save my breath , keep it to myself and yes, soon your wish will come true. We wouldn't go beyond this year. Thanks.
Best Regards,
Disappointed Wife.

 Everyone asked, "are you alright?" . Well, why bother asking when you know I wasn't at all just by looking at me?

# What's wrong with me.. I wasn't hungryy.. Not at all.. I drank one 16oz orange juice yesterday only.. I ate two prata in the morning at 10am, drank one cup of orange juice at 10am, 16oz orange juice at 4.10pm and 16oz coke at 11pm. Didn't ate the meal I took today, I'm not hungry.. What's wrong with me?! :/ Probaby I'm gonna die soon..

I don't need anyone that doesn't need me.
I'm sure I'd be better without.

DwayneChongYiDa's.2ndJanuary2012 Someone who lights up my life when everything seems so dim. Someone who stays by my side no matter what happens. Someone who bears all my short temper-ness and tantrums.

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