Hen♠ittionSecond-s

Sunday, October 28, 2012 /

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Hello peoples! Okay. Yes he won't be reading all this alr but still I'm posting cause its memories. He left . Thanks to those who has been here for me this two days. Last night and today.

To people last night : Hmm. Don't worry about my wrist lah. Well I won't die yet. Im still living fine. Just a bit infection since its from liquor glass.

To people today : JiaYu, thank you.. When I cried so painfully , you rushed down to accompany me. All this years, thank you so much. To people in whatsapp group, yes lots of scolding but still. Don't worry, I know what I'm doing. I'm still fine.. Yes I cried till I've no tears, I cried till my eyes are swollen.. But you all know me, I will persist on smth I love . Oh and to my papa(tho you won't read) , but I love you! Your text were so long and I know you really meant us well. Sorry that I've disappoint you.

Dear me,
I just got home and yes changed and going out soon. Heading to club for my night life since I know I couldn't sleep. I told Joey I wanna try ecstasy haha! Crazy me. People ask, so what's the conclusion after talking to me. My reply was, he dump me. Hahaha! What's so strange, who would want a irritating bitch? Hah. So what happened, many ask. Here's the story. He's not wearing the ring anymore, he stop wearing the bandana(?) for work which actually represented us(to me) and he returned me my cap for work. We didn't talk and he avoided me even tho I told myself I must make things right even we're colleague . I left work early because I really don't want things to stay ugly. He left work early also, dk meet who. Well, who am i to care. Found out he ate supper with a girl(the one I feared most) and yes two story. Meet Jia, cry it all out. Then I call him to come down and wanna talk to him. He arrived within 6mins. Asked him several times if we're getting back. Same answer. We came to no conclusions and I hurt myself again. Found out he removed fb status and changed his dp.. Well changing rs status, was smth I couldn't bear to. Jia asked, why didn't I change. Because I couldn't bear to accept that I'm currently not his anymore. Well, im just sick and tired of my life. That's all. Finish, ended and I was dump.
Faithfully,
Depressed human.

Waiting for Gib to pick me up for town. Bored. I'm gonna go back to my "healthy" lifestyle . Why? Cause there's no one that really cares anymore.

## you don't even know who's my best of friend, who could be the one I'll hang out with for new lifestyle . Jia is to kind and simply, please don't bother her. Thanks. (well, if you were to read)

ALRIGHT TO PEOPLE WHO WANNA SEE LAST NIGHT POST, IT'S HERE. BECAUSE MY BLOG DON'T SHOW PAST POSTS. SO YEPX.
Well, we ended on the 300th day.. And we didn't managed to reach the 10th month.. It's a tough path for you boy.. I'm sorry for being sucha f-ed up girlfr. Really.. I know you really wanna end this rs.. Your reply was no longer the same.. Probably you didn't say it out because you felt it was so cruel.. Well, I said it for you. I went to work, I didn't left early, it's all for you.. Because I really wanna spend the last few moments with you.. I know we're not gonna last.. After yesterday(Friday) , I knew it all.. Im sorry for not being able to change anything.. I didn't wanna start afresh, because I know you've so much hate deep down.. I didn't wanna you send me home, I didn't wanna you see me cry.. We're just be colleague from now on.. Mr stranger , I'm happy enough to have you in my life once.. Because we didn't start off thinking we'd be tgt.. Anyways, thanks..

Called you twice.. Because I just wanna hear your voice and not talk, you hung up.. So not you.. So not the one I ever know.. The pain, shoot all the way down..